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CaughtCaughtCaught by BenHammonds
caught between the tides of reality
and the storms of fantasy
I live my life caught up in perplexity
part simple and yet complicated
trying to exist between both
my want and my need, my heart and my mind
yet striving to find serenity in both
and in all things and places that I am
but endurance is a gift that I have
to stay the course and continue on
through my life's journey
caught between life
and my own death
I am a PaganI am a child of nature
|How often do I vent? Do I vent Too much? I have found a Need to talk. I have found a place to vent. You neednot read this . This is really just for me and anyone that feels close to me. I wish to be friends with any and all, but be forewarned I flirt, I am an adult my mind is full of MATURE CONTNENT and it slips out in conversation. So if I ask your age it usually is for that reason. Also the same goes for married individuals - my husband of 20 years knows that I am a flirt - and is ok with it. Is your spouse or lover ok with me flirting with you? if not just tell me to keep it clean and I will. If you are under 21 give me some fair warning won't ya you are all young enough to be a child of mine. I have no children - but the fuzzy kind. In High school my nick name was mom so if you need a non bias motherly ear I will listen.|
PEACE and BRIGHTEST BLESSINGS
and yet my brain and heart are cold. THEY pop in and out thinking that I do not notice. Every visit a slice to my soul. I write this here because not everyone reads this. Quiettt is missing and brkoe my heart and He who must not be named pops in and never says a thing. narry a word and I am denied even a hint, a i, a simple courtsey of a Howdy. IT HURTS and I can not stop the hurt.
Safety Love and Peace I send to All
I'm sure not many if any read this so I feel safe to put my feelings here and not scare any one I just need the release of words.
I take meds for anxiety and depression there are nights like tonight that I feel that they are not working as they should. I can not afford to tell anyone because I can not afford the bills. Pain and fear are keeping me awake again. Tears cloud my eyes as I write this. All I want is for one specific person to say hi to me and my shoulder to stop hurting then I could possibly sleep and exercise and loose the weight that is causing the rest of my physical pain. I am pathetic. I am miserable. I wish That I never got to be this age and I am wishing that I will not get any older. But they need me. I guess that is the only reason I exist. I do not say that I live. I exist, from day to day, that is all.
She loves.She loves to be bitten
Bondage Come to my dungeon
Australian KissesSensuous exhaustion, you look tired
I Dreamt About You Last NightIn my dream.